thoughts to own breasts

okay rightie, u doing good. we need to keep imorioving

okay left- u gota keep up now... ur doing half of rights work.

fiannly some rest "

Me got some rest today. Yday, wwas aboutt to resign to fact that my milk is just 1 ounce max and wil never ever bf izzy exclusively. failure failure failure.. Went to doc Joy to ask for alternative options like mix feeding turned into a counseling/pyschiatric session.

Dr Joy was positive abt my milk. ANnd prescribed me a good nights rest. No pumping. Juts get out of he room, go out. sleep the whole night. preferable away from izzy. Part of milk meltdown is due to stress and fatiqgue. I didnt even have to tell her. She told me. EVerything she said hitmeright on th spot - no sleep since birth,baby keeps crtying, just came from labor. No time to pee or poop. ( or eat leisurely). No bath( althouggh this one didnt really bother me much) I just had to cry. Which she said is okay. apparently coz lots of new moms do come crying to her. It felt so good to be abletto talk to someone who just underswtands. and she tasked K to take over night duty.

last night, i gave everything to k and slept. well of course i woke up when ever baby cried ( like 12 - 2 am) but at least i didnt hae to worry abt feeding her or pumping. QWent back to sleep to Klevin singing to izzy.

Woke up at 6 to engorged and hot breasts and pumped to hot fresh milk of 2 oz. my max ever.

Today izzy didnt refuse my breasts and i felt good.

Hope Tomorrow will still be a good izzy day.

Izzy's first attempt to "talk" on her 16th day :) ( noise..)

t.i.r.e.d

they tell u to take it easy to increase milk supply. but how can u di that wen u need to pump every hour for twenty four hours? if direct 2-3 hrs or the whole afternoon? and find time to do everything in between. too ecxhausted to even make necessary phone calls( which i tasked a certain soimneone to do but end up doing it anyway since it seems to be tsaking forever.plus have to read up on baby stuff

lost 5lbs right after labor. lost 12 lbs one week after labor

karma is a bitch

karma is a bitch! my childhood is littered with mom's constant nagging about the mess we leave in the house. Nag nag nag. Ive heard them all.. the most often one would be "how are you going to get married if you cant be neat. No husband will take a slob" Yes, i have always assumed that motherhood means constant picking up after the chaos left behind by dad and kids.

Well This time around, i am constantly picking up after KELVIN!!!! and to think i consider myself a slob. Ive met my match! No need to worry abt the husband dumping a slob ma!!!!!

*&@@#)&#@%$ ... A week in.. spent on uniforms and derma and all that crap already and im already getting my telltale problems with yaya already. had to leave to take care of husband in hospital plus borrow money. she needs it to buy kape daw...WTF!!! sumasakit ang ulo ko!!!!